This weekend I am determined to make it as low key as I can. My birthday is next friday and I'm really kinda weirded out about it. It could that I haven't really celebrated my birthday in about 6 years. Last year there was no hoopla, just a footbal game. This year? Apparently everyone has forgotten becuase I have been enlisted to "play the Sponge Bob Square Pants Game" with my 8 year old cousin. What the hell??
Last night's dream was really off the wall too. I was living in my high school, only it was filled with water and I was moving through there on a boat. Then i dreamed I was covered from head to toe with tattoos. Actually, one big tattoo. It was kinda cool. Then all the tats were gone and I was in the chair about to be pierced! Like I said, crazy.
swirly said what she needed to say 2:51 PM
Wednesday, September 25, 2002
Refocused
This week something really great happened. I somehow, through all the crap going on in my life, managed to remember why I was going to school (again). I want to do something that I love. It doesn't have to be life changing, just mood altering I suppose...Sign Language is something that I love. It gives me one more way to commuincate with people around me. That's all I ever wanted. Well, I also want to feel like I am a useful member of society; right now I don't feel very useful, or even a member of society. Anywho...I am now refocused and getting better at my time management. In 6 days I have realized that there are some things that I just have to say, "Hey man, sorry, can't do that today." And while I feel bad for 2 seconds, at least I'm not pulling my hair out by the end of the week because I have over extended myself.
I've also gotten a few of my tests back from last week; and while I didn't do as well as I know I could have, I know that I didn't do as bad as I thought. I have to work harder.
Man, looking back at what I've just written...nevermind.
swirly said what she needed to say 12:31 PM
Sunday, September 22, 2002
Upcoming birthday
My birthday is in 12 days....I'm not quite sure how to feel about this.
swirly said what she needed to say 11:41 PM
1. Would you say that you're good at keeping in touch with people?
Some would say no. But I think that I do a good job keeping in touch with people I truly care about.
2. Which communication method do you usually prefer/use: e-mail, telephone, snail mail, blog comments, or meeting in person? Why?
It really depends on the friend. LIke my friend Paul used to call each other all the time, but now we use AIM because a) I'm up late all the time & b) We live in 2 different time zones. With my other friend Michelle, we communicate any way we can because time is of the essence and she doesn't have a lot of time to talk. But since Allie lives up the highway from me, we usually just call each other or meet up for lunch. I don't think that I've ever use my blog to keep in touch.
3. Do you have an instant messenger program? How many? Why/why not? How often do you use it?
I have 2 such programs. They always seem to be running, but that's because I don't have a dial-up. I don't use it that often.
4. Do most of your close friends live nearby or far away?
2 of my close friends live far away, the others are close by.
5. Are you an "out of sight, out of mind" person, or do you believe that "distance makes the heart grow fonder"?
I'm a happy medium when it comes to those cliche's
swirly said what she needed to say 10:08 AM
Tuesday, September 17, 2002
Farewell 4.0, I hardly knew ye...
Well, my struggle to maintain my 4.0 average tanked today. I took my first test in ASL III and did terrible. Hopefully, I'll be able to pull it up with the other tests and assignments throughout the semester. I really want this. But I think I need it much more.
swirly said what she needed to say 10:46 PM
Funny Man
I've been needing a good laugh after the day I've had. This guy is great when you need to smile.
swirly said what she needed to say 10:13 PM
Sunday, September 15, 2002
Weekend Recap
I think this is the first time in a very long time that I went out everyday day over the weekend. Usually, I at least use Sudnay as a recoup day. It kind looked like this:
Friday Introduced Dee to the cheap Italian menu at Picchi-Pacchi. We had Jamba Juice for dessert. Then we watched 2 of my favorite movies, Ocean's 11 and Snatch. It was cool.
Saurday Went to a free concert to downtown Ft. Worth. Blue Oyster Cult and Grand Funk Railroad were playing. BOC played a really good set. GFR played 75% cover songs. It was kind of a disappointment--this place looked like a cross between an ICP concert and a Harley Davidson meeting. But the weirdest thing to happen was in three main events that evening. Just as I entered the gated area, there were 2 men standing in the beer line. As I passed one of them actually said: "Hey, how you doin'?" and I know the look on my face said it all. Because right after I gave him the "hey dude you're old enough to be my dad" look he started screaming: "What? I'm not good enough?!". It was really embarrassing. Then second weird thing to happen was that half way through the BOC set some scary guy came up and grabbed my hand. "hey, come with me." He said. Okay, now what girl who wasn't on drugs would have said, "ok!"? Anyway, This guy kept pulling me with him, I started to get afraid. I finally told him, "Hey man, if you don't let go of my hand I'm gonna have to hit you with the other one." He finally let go and moved onto the next girl. And finally...I was accosted by a girl who's tattoo to tooth ratio was seriously in need of an adjustment. I won't be going back.
Sunday A swim party for my 5 year old cousin. A fun time was had by all, even if I had to ride with my sister out to Dallas to partake.
swirly said what she needed to say 8:46 PM
Saturday, September 14, 2002
Oh yeah, I'm a badass
I'm the badass burgundy patent Doc Marten... I'm cool as hell, I'm deep, and maybe a little dark
I was cleaning out my closet and found several containers that I used for weed storage. I was actually suprised to find some papers, screens, and other bits in one container. For a second, it made me miss college/dorm life--then I tossed them. No use in wishing to have what ya already been through once.
swirly said what she needed to say 4:16 AM
Happiness
On the drive home from Dee's. I was thinking about things that I am happy about right now in my life. So here it is:
I'm Happy...
I don't have to live on the streets.
I have finally figured out what I want to do with my life.
I never got pregnant.
I don't smoke (cigs) anymore.
I never did anything worse than smoke some weed and watch the Mind's Eye series.
I've heard someone tell me that they love me.
I know how to drive.
I met someone like Allie at this point in my life; she provides me with perspective.
I live in Texas, where the summer's are hot as hell and the winter is as mild as Northern Summer.
That I listened to my great grandma about my exboyfriend.
Dee encouraged me to "tie up loose ends".
That no one forced me to listen to wedding details about Allen's nuptuials.
I have this blog to talk about things that I wouldn't talk about with some of my friends.
I'm learning American Sign Language.
I live in a country where I can flush the toilet round the clock and take hour long showers (if I want to).
I get watch Conan O'brein.
I've decided not to waste time with people who don't improve my life.
...and most of all:
I'm happy that I didn't make a rash decision by packing up my things and go a'movin' to another state.
swirly said what she needed to say 4:12 AM
Friday, September 13, 2002
I don't like Mondays...but Fridays are pretty cool
'nuff said
swirly said what she needed to say 12:12 PM
Thursday, September 12, 2002
Access DENIED!
Well apparently, my site is inaccessible in China. Hmm...wonder why that could be?
swirly said what she needed to say 11:42 PM
1. What was/is your favorite subject in school? Why? In college I LOVED all of my journalism classes. Mostly because they were small and we often moved the class to the pizza place across the street. Yeah, we'd discuss the 1st amendment over a large pie and a pitcher of beer. Pretty cool.
In high school I really liked all of my english classes. That was because that's what I was good at--ok, it was really because I would read the book that was assigned for the week.
2. Who was your favorite teacher? Why? In college it was my music prof, Dr. Stephen Simons. In high school it was Mr. James Calhoun.
They both had similar qualities. Both were kind and encouraging. They never walked away from a chance to teach someone something new.
3. What is your favorite memory of school? In college....it's actally related to sex and drugs. In high school I was shocked that I won 1st place in the medical division of the science fair--especially since I was failing biology at the time.
4. What was your favorite recess game? I didn't have too many chances to play during recess-- I was taking private music lessons while everyone else was playing...then Mom swicthed it and put me in gymnastic classes while everyone else was at recess.
5. What did you hate most about school? I hated feeling awkward.
swirly said what she needed to say 11:26 PM
I'm sad....there's no Friday Five yet
swirly said what she needed to say 11:13 PM
Responsibility
I noticed recently that I suck when it comes to responsibilty. Meaning that I often blow mine off...maybe I should say I do it all the time. I was wondering if maybe it ran in the family. Found out yesterday that my mom used to blow stuff off all the time when she was younger, now she does it from time to time. Good to know that when I'm pushing 50 I'll only be irresponsible "every once in a while". I only have to wait about 30 years.
swirly said what she needed to say 12:26 AM
Being Vegan = Smelly poop?
My sister is a vegan, which is cool. But everytime she visits, the bathroom smells like some 500 pound man who's been eating beef all his life has just taken a crap. I'm still trying to figure that one out. And yes, I know my poop stinks too.
swirly said what she needed to say 12:05 AM
Waiting
Somehow, it just seemed wrong for me to comment about my life yesterday. But now that today is tomorrow, and tomrrow is today is seems ok.
swirly said what she needed to say 12:03 AM
Saturday, September 07, 2002
Married and cheating??
Why oh why would you make a blog like this? At least if I'm out there sleeping with whoever, I'm not involved in a commited relationship. It just seems to me that this guy is opening a whole can of worms should his wife, or the many other women he's whoring around should find out....Just my opinion of course, and I don't really give a crap if anyone agrees.
swirly said what she needed to say 3:42 PM
1. What is your biggest pet peeve? Why? I was thinking about this and realized that there are of things that annoy me. One is the improper use of the word "seen", i.e. "Oh, I seen it on TV yesterday!" This actually happens more often than not considering where I live.
2. What irritating habits do you have? I have tons. a. I close people's shower curtains when I go into their bathroom. b. I ask for a glass glass when I want to drink milk. c. I make lists and leave them around all over.
There are are a lot more but I can't think of 'em right now.
3. Have you tried to change the irritating habits or just let them be? Some of them I have changed. Other ones I know I want to change. I'm always working to look less stupid.
4. What grosses you out more than anything else? Why? I used to have a boyfriend that had been single a little too long...he used to eat ketchup off of his hand. Thinking about it makes me want to throw up! I mean please, at least put it on a piece of bread or something!!
5. What one thing can you never see yourself doing that other people do? Living in a trailer. But I think that's more of a poor life choice than anything else.
swirly said what she needed to say 11:30 PM
Wednesday, September 04, 2002
How would your friends describe you?
I was hanging out with Brian and Josh. This is what they had to give me as a description of their friend Mike:
B : He's cool. J : Yeah. But he's only got about 100 brain cells. Me : Why do you say that? B : Well, Mike is obsessed with that band, The Cure, right? He drinks all the time! Now's he's in college getting a degree in Physics... J: He used 99 of those brain cells to memorize Cure songs, the other cell he uses to memorize physics equations.
Ok, this is pretty funny in it's own right. It got me to wondering about how your friends see you. Last night, I started wondering what kind of description my friends provide other with when I'm not around. I hope it's better than Mike's.
swirly said what she needed to say 1:49 PM
Tuesday, September 03, 2002
Scary
I counted as I organized my Cd's this weekend: 455. Do the math, I have a crapload of money wrapped up in music. That sucks.
swirly said what she needed to say 9:35 PM
In need of a plan
Yeah, so I realized today that I need to make a schedule so that I will be a better student. Like right now, for example, I should be typing up a list of Deaf Observation Opportunities. I should also be watching the video tape that goes along with my ASL book. I need to be more disciplined. Any ideas? Comments? Suggestions? Leave 'em below please.
swirly said what she needed to say 9:32 PM
When did life get so busy?
That's what I was wondering today as I sat alone in my car stuck in traffic. It was weird. I've been driving for nearly 10 years now and have never even thought about traffic. But there I was, just staring out in front of me at car after car after car. No one's car was moving, but you should have seen how much movement was going on in each car!
The guy next to me was deeply involved on the phone, from what I could lip read he was super pissed off that his deal fell through. And the lady in front of me...first let me say that I have a new found respefct for a mom with 5 kids. She was doing the whole "Don't-make-me-come-back-there" speech; believe me when I say I could tell! But the funniest thing I saw was the guy behind me. He was really angry about the traffic and was making all sorts of faces, and eventually got mad becuase I was watching him make all of his crazy faces.
It still escapes me that people perceive their cars as private places when they are surrounded on all sides by windows--windows that everyone can see in as well as out of. People make me laugh, just as I make them I laugh I'm sure.
swirly said what she needed to say 9:29 PM
