Dee keeps reminding me that for 75 (+ the cost of a marriage license) bucks we can ride the coat tails of her wedding in June and have Elvis and the Vegas showgirls marry Phil and me. I've since brought this up a couple of times to Phil and he's not going for it. I say we go for it, because it goes against everything we've ever had in mind for a wedding. Granted, I have to return to Texas after we're married to finish out my program for ASL interpretation...
swirly said what she needed to say 11:57 PM
Tuesday, February 25, 2003
Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow
Texas has been the recipient of some freak-ass weather over the past 3 days. On Sunday, it was 68 degree. I saw squirrels frolicking and everything. Then, Monday afternoon we got some weird sleet-snow-freezing rain combo. Now, all of our major highways look like skating rinks for 18 wheelers. Classes have been canceled for 2 days. What does it all mean for me? More playstation time. hehe.
swirly said what she needed to say 10:39 PM
Friday, February 21, 2003
"Things don't suck"
When I was in high school, which feels like a million years ago now, I had this Physical Science teacher that would always tell us: "Things don't suck. It's only a difference in air pressure." To this day I still remember her saying that. I can even remember where I sat in the class. Boyd Shannon was my lab partner, as well as my boyfriend the year prior.
But I started thinking about how my life doesn't suck these days...and then it all came back. "It's just a difference in air pressure".
swirly said what she needed to say 9:57 PM
Wednesday, February 19, 2003
He's a planner, I'm a planner...
Phil told me last night that he used to plan for sex. This intrigued me; probably because I never knew. Then I started asking him things like: "So did you plan like weeks in advanced?" Apparently, it wasn't long term planning. Phil, on the other hand, finds it rather funny that I'm so interested in his "planning for sex". I think it's the same humor I expressed when I told him that I loved his hair (he's got waist length blonde hair--totally not what I usually go for, but with him it's different.) and love getting lost in it when he takes it out of the ponytail he's always wearing. That's right ladies and gentlemen; I have a "sensitive ponytail man" for a boyfriend.
Yeah I know...it weirds me out too.
swirly said what she needed to say 10:56 PM
Tuesday, February 18, 2003
Being a failure and feeling like one are two different things
Yeah, so lately I've been feeling like I'm failing at everything I do. Maybe I've got too much stuff on my plate. I'm trying to do book Creative Memories classes, be the President for the Sign Language club at school, convince the guy I'm in love with that I'm worth taking a chance on, and all the other crap that takes place everyday.
This is just like the 1st time I was in college. I get too overwhelmed with all the stuff that I want to do, and I neglect the stuff that I need to be doing. It's upsetting to me that I can't be better at managing my time, probably because I work so hard at making time for everything.
The other thing I'm upset about is my first test grade in my last ASL class. I have only this semester left of ASL and I feel terrible. I'm not understanding, there's no vocab. There's not any of the regular understanding going on. But I also realize that this was only the first test and that I've got 5 others to improve my grades. It's...like having a huge library of knowledge accessible to me, but I don't have the right key to unlock the door.
Everything with Phil is going well, which is my one saving grace. And with nothing-terrible going on between us, it makes everything else a lot easier to handle. I think we're both ready to run off and get married. Is that foreshadowing perhaps? hmm....
swirly said what she needed to say 11:30 AM
Saturday, February 15, 2003
Cramps
I never ever talk about my "girl problems" here; but right now I just have to say that cramps suck ass.
swirly said what she needed to say 1:29 PM
Thursday, February 13, 2003
H-n-S
Me: "You're hot n'stuff." P: "Pardon?" Me:" You. You're hot n'stuff." P: "Is that anything like HR Puff n'Stuff when we were kids?" Me:"Um, no. It's just you're hot....an' stuff" P: (Laughs like the Dough Boy) "That's me. It sounds like I came outta the oven." Me:" Eesh. Nevermind."
swirly said what she needed to say 3:36 PM
Thursday, February 06, 2003
Being Afraid
Lester wrote an entry that totally encapsulates what I've been feeling too. As most of you know, my great-grandmother's sister is in a nursing home with Alzheimer's disease. It's odd to be thrown into the capacity of caregiver when you don't feel that you can even take care of yourself. But Lester is lucky right now, because of the unknown factor. In his case, it could just be that his father isn't getting enough vitamin nutrition; and that's easily correctable.
This is why I was worried about leaving to move to Michigan. What if something happens to my parents, who aren't even 50 yet, and I'm far away? Who's going to take care of them, make arrangements? My Sister? Yeah, right.
swirly said what she needed to say 9:50 AM
Wednesday, February 05, 2003
Too much responsibility
I'm super busy these days. To the point that I cannot remember the last time I showered or even washed my face. Phil and I will be spending some quality time together in a couple of months, and believe you me I cannot wait for that. I think he's just started to realize recently that "dating" when I come to visit won't entail more than checking e-mail and getting naked. Yeah, I know...I should let him take me out at least.
swirly said what she needed to say 7:18 PM
